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21 December 2011 @ 10:52 pm
"Touch Me" (Guy/Marian one-shot) PG-13  
SUMMARY: Masks are hard to be stripped alone.

AUTHOR: Lexie akalillianschild


FANDOM: Robin Hood

PAIRING: Guy/Marian

A/N: This is another reworking of an old fic of mine while I look forward to the time when I can sit down and draft an original multi-chaptered Guy story I have in mind.


I’d always yearned to have someone in my life who really saw me beyond the masks and the walls; someone who could touch me in secret corners nobody had reached before and make me whole.

And you came into my barren world one autumn morning and it suddenly didn’t feel that withered any more. Who would have known this jaded soul, who’d been dispossessed and exiled to the distant corners of his mother’s foreign homeland, could have lost his heart to the principled eighteen-year-old maid of the luminous smile? But I did. And you recognised my coldness and my cynicism for what they were, a mask just like yours. And you touched me in silent places where words only interfere. And we touched each other in sad places where only whispering makes sense, places which held memories that had shaped us and whose resonance haunted us.

Time and choices, hurting and bitterness pulled us apart and eventually brought us together because there’s no one better than us to understand the world is more than just black and white. It’s in the morning when the darkness of the night still clings that I need you to touch me. And the need grows stronger when the hours elapse and I feel the mist start to wrap me, when the sun sets- the sun whose light reminds me of the way your hair shone once as you stood in your room and put your life and your father’s in my hands. It is at twilight that my demons start to haunt me and my soul yearns to be touched.

It is in the evening, when I hide from the world, that I fight against the walls around my heart and the ruthless unquestioning henchman he’s always wanted. It’s when the sun’s no longer there that I yearn for you to touch me the way a child who might never have enough love needs to be touched. For it’s only with you that I feel it’s safe to be the boy she used to love, the son she could be proud of.

In a world of obsequious minions and back-stabbing acquaintances, as my coffers grow fuller and the hunger for power opens its path like a cankering worm, I look across the room and long for your green eyes to find me. A single look. No words exchanged. Just touch me. Touch me when I’m alone and darkness envelops me and I can’t see, when misunderstanding and others stand in our way and I reach for you through time and space.

Your words, your mere presence in the same room are enough. Touch me. I need to know he hasn’t won yet. Touch me. I need to know I can still feel. Touch me. I need to know it’s still me.

Touch me --- gently for I am fragile,
--- firmly for I am strong,
--- often for I am alone.

Touch me and make me whole again.


A/N: The excerpt in italics belongs to Suzanne Somers’ poem “Touch Me”. Thanks for the inspiration.

If you enjoyed this one, you can check out another brief Guy one-shot I posted a few days ago-
Current Mood: artisticartistic
aoxelfrieda: guy man in blackaoxelfrieda on December 22nd, 2011 09:43 am (UTC)
That was lovely! I like your idea that Guy is able to be tough and ruthless in the daylight, but at night he gets lonely and needs more. Especially like this:

"And you touched me in silent places where words only interfere. And we touched each other in sad places where only whispering makes sense, places which held memories that had shaped us and whose resonance haunted us."
lillianschild: melancholy guylillianschild on January 4th, 2012 11:00 am (UTC)
Sorry for the delay in answering to your feedback.

I truly appreciate your words. Hopefully, this won't be the last Guy fic by me.
angeliquesance: Guy Of Gisborneangeliquesance on December 22nd, 2011 01:00 pm (UTC)
This is so beautiful! I'm no friend of poems, but this wants me to read more.
Please, go on this way!
lillianschild: pensive guylillianschild on January 4th, 2012 11:01 am (UTC)
I'm not overly-fond of poetry either but from time to time I stumble on some beautiful pieces which I find truly inspiring.
Maddarilke: Guy of Gisborne Marian Come to Memaddarilke on December 22nd, 2011 03:57 pm (UTC)
That is REALLY lovely. Very touching, no pun intended! xoxoxo
lillianschild: thoughtful guylillianschild on January 4th, 2012 11:02 am (UTC)
Pun or no pun intended, that was a lovely compliment.
piphilosophy on December 22nd, 2011 11:22 pm (UTC)
Your way with words makes Guy's emotions palpable and animated. His desperate need of Marian is laid bare and revealed so poetically, melancholically. Brilliant!
lillianschild: guy near-kisslillianschild on January 4th, 2012 11:55 am (UTC)
I appreciate your lovely words. Thanks for reading and taking the time for reviewing.
purple_moon123: Chlexpurple_moon123 on December 23rd, 2011 12:26 am (UTC)
I don't know whether to love you or hate your talent because you have this freaking ability to what you write rolls of the tongue like poetry!!!! Amazing as always!!!
lillianschild: guyxmarian comfortlillianschild on January 4th, 2012 12:03 pm (UTC)
I'm blushing profusely here. LOL.

How about coming up with some Guy or Guy/Marian artwork in the future? +hint+
purple_moon123: Chloepurple_moon123 on January 5th, 2012 05:43 am (UTC)
oh you!!! Like I need more bunnies running around in my head!!!
but now that you mention it, hmmmm
rjforap: RArjforap on December 23rd, 2011 04:20 am (UTC)
Loved reading this! Just made my day after having to do a lot of snow shoveling. You are definitely delving into Guy's mind and heart. Thanks for sending the email and for this wonderfully good read. :)
lillianschild: thoughtful guylillianschild on January 4th, 2012 12:06 pm (UTC)
There's a lot to delve into when it comes to Guy. Cross your fingers for him to allow me to continue exploring him in the future.

Glad to have brighten up your day.
pingback_botpingback_bot on December 28th, 2011 10:37 pm (UTC)
Touch Me
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lillianschild: guyxmarian comfortlillianschild on January 4th, 2012 10:58 am (UTC)
Re: Touch Me
Thanks again for adding another fic of mine to the library.
Thymelady: gxm_apple_blossomthymelady on December 30th, 2011 10:45 am (UTC)
Beautiful! Feels very true to THEM. :-)
lillianschild: pensive guylillianschild on January 4th, 2012 12:07 pm (UTC)
It's nice to know I've managed to capture their essence.in such a brief work.

Thanks for your feedback.
flannery?xenobius on February 21st, 2012 09:12 am (UTC)
Oh my god, this is absolutely beautiful! <3333 I wasn't even aware of it, but you seemed to have written out what I always thought Guy's inner thoughts were. He's really not just evil, but rather vulnerable...

Edited at 2012-02-21 09:17 am (UTC)
lillianschild: woobie guylillianschild on February 21st, 2012 03:34 pm (UTC)
That he certainly is. Unfortunately the two people who noticed this- Vasey and Marian. exploited this weakness for their own benefit. You can't help but feel sympathy and the need to give him a good hug,

Lovely icon, by the way.

ETA: I've posted two other Guy ficlets you might like:

Close Your Eyes (http://lillianschild.livejournal.com/83636.html) and Remember (http://lillianschild.livejournal.com/82622.html)

Edited at 2012-02-21 03:36 pm (UTC)
flannery?xenobius on February 21st, 2012 07:29 pm (UTC)
Oh yes, I definitely felt bad whenever Guy was used :(

Hehehe thanks, it's Colin Firth, whom I also really like and admire.

Thanks for the links. I've got them next in line to be read :)
lillianschild: rejected guylillianschild on February 21st, 2012 07:36 pm (UTC)
I did know it was Colin. I've been a fan of his work since the 1980s when very few people knew about him outside the UK.

I hope you'll like the other ficlets as much as this one. :)