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15 April 2010 @ 01:31 am
"Stained Glass" (Lex/Chlex one-shot) PG-13 Angst/General  

TITLE: STAINED GLASS

AUTHOR: Lexie aka lillianschild 

CHALLENGE: Entry for Naughty Seduction's Fanfic Challenge #8 March 2010- Pic Challenge

PAIRING: Chlex

SUMMARY: Coloured fragments of a dream. Lex's POV. One-shot

RATING: PG-13

A/N: At the bottom you'll find the two pics that I used  as a prompt out of the five which were given; although my true inspiration derived from two short poems I came across several months ago. I'd been toying with the idea of using the poetry to  intersperse it in two ficlets, however when this challenge came up I realised it was the perfect opportunity ,not to use the actual poems but to derive inspiration from them. These poems are: Linda A. Copp's 'A Stained-Glass Window' and Georgie M. Kusak's 'God's Crayons'.

 STAINED GLASS

 

Multicoloured shards lie scattered at my feet as the unexpected storm rages with unrestrained violence. Coloured fragments of a dream lying there helpless, scarred and alone. The wind and the rain, which come through the void that is now what used to be the stained-glass window in whose light I remember you standing, are lashing against my face. My soaked dress shirt has started to plaster to my skin, but I do not feel cold as I close my eyes and assemble the broken pieces in my mind again.

 

It is suddenly warm and sunny. Gone is the sound of the roaring wind and, in its place, I can hear your quickened breathing and your nervous chuckle as you try to convince me and yourself that everything will be fine, that I will be able to protect you from the man to whom I have always been nothing but a disgrace. I see your smile, luminous like the light and the wonder the stained-glass window used to catch and cast whenever you were around, and believe once again I can be someone you could be proud of, someone you might even learn to love.

 

I open my eyes and see the physical culprit of this destruction fight its way through the splintered glass that has yet to fall- the branch of an old tree, which advances and retreats like the epée I have not wielded since the day I split into two and my evil half almost killed you at the fertiliser plant. It has ripped through the splendour of this rainbow in glass- the only thing left standing of a dream I once had. I look at it accusingly- my fists clenched in impotence- when it launches forward aiming at my chest as if it were challenging me to a duel, as if it were saying ‘Come on. Prove your worth. Only cowards are incapable of facing what they have brought upon themselves.’

 

I kneel down and start collecting the shattered glass, oblivious to the way the smallest shards pierce my hands and bury in my skin. I notice the little crimson rivulets that run through my fingers and across my palms and pay no heed to the pain. I clench my fist tighter wishing that shattered beauty- which now lies unrhyming and dark as the night- could mingle with my blood and flow through my veins to recapture the way you made me feel while standing together in the light cast by the stained-glass window of my study.

 

I raise my eyes and glare at the branch as it fences stubbornly against the splintered glass still hanging from the window frame. I scramble to my feet, grab the poker and trudge against the hampering wind to reach the destroyer. I swing the tool like an axe and slam it down over and over again severing the offending arm from the immovable body it is attached to. My heaving chest fights for oxygen once the deed is accomplished; however, there is no satisfaction in the amputation for, delicate and fragile, the remains of the pane could not last.

 

With a silent howl I hurl the poker across the room and smash the glass of the cabinet which holds some of my antiques collection greatest treasures. I am sure a couple of pieces have been damaged in the process and yet I do not care. Even though they are unique and obscenely expensive when compared to this stained glass I cannot stop looking at with blurry eyes, it is what this window stood for that I will never be able to replace.

 

I fall on my knees amidst the scattered shards, focusing my gaze on the biggest fragments, calling out to the little boy whose voice I have not heard for quite some time now. He would be able to pick up the now opaque remnants and make them shine again. The minutes tick away and the storm grows more ferocious, the old volumes you once leafed through as you sat waiting for my arrival in my den fly off the shelves sucked by the whirlwind that is sweeping across the room. I strain my ears to hear the red-haired boy’s voice, close my bloodshot eyes to obliterate the chaos around me and see your deep emerald pools holding my gaze, granting me your trust, showing your faith in me.

 

I remember looking into your green orbs and being washed over by a soothing calm. I remember seeing another pair of eyes reflected in their depths calling out to the little boy trapped in the body of a jaded twenty-four-year-old. Getting lost in your eyes I yearned to find the three-year-old who used to sit on his mother’s lap with coloured crayons clutched tightly in his hand, colours amazingly bright glowing like a prism light.

 

Standing with you as the sun filtered through the stained glass, painting us in hues of purple and gold, I dreamt I was holding those crayons again, planning my masterpiece with childish excitement. The evening sunset blazed like a red-hot flame enhancing the radiant colours I saw reflected on your face. Unwilling to drop my gaze- as if I were in a mesmerised daze- I stared at the splendid hues and basked in your warmth.

 

Suddenly, I feel a pair of hands grabbing my arms and hear the unwelcomed voice of one of my security detail shouting at me and urging me to vacate the room and seek shelter. Still sitting despondently on the plank wood floor, I stare at the multicoloured glass scattered around me. I feel my heart ache with a dull pain. Sorrow overtakes me as I glance over these pieces of a shattered dream, pieces that were once held as one. And I see your beautiful eyes, which once shone with warmth in my presence, filled with bitter animosity and mistrust when you look at me now.

 

I shoot a final glance at the void where our stained-glass window used to be and wonder where the first stone that ripped through it came from, the rock that ripped through the splendour of our rainbow in glass.

 

THE END




 
 
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
 
 
 
Jengreenlady2 on April 15th, 2010 06:11 am (UTC)
Great short story! The thing is, the show never explained why Lex lost Chloe's trust, did it. It was just like someone unseen threw a rock through it, shattering it into a million pieces. No other explanation.
lillianschild: gaplillianschild on April 15th, 2010 05:03 pm (UTC)
Indeed it's just one of the major loopholes we're expected to explain by resorting to off-Screenville.

Glad you liked it, Jen.
eternal_moonieeternal_moonie on April 16th, 2010 08:25 am (UTC)
I really loved this short story. Thanks so much for writing it!
lillianschild: happy couplelillianschild on April 16th, 2010 02:19 pm (UTC)
You're welcome.

The fiction one writes is always meant to be shared. We need you- our audience- to close the circle, so thanks for reading and commenting. ;)
karahalliwell: Other ; Revolutionaries Wantedkarahalliwell on May 22nd, 2010 02:10 pm (UTC)
Wow, that was beautiful. Poor Lex :(

<3
lillianschild: hurtlillianschild on May 22nd, 2010 06:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks, darling. Poor Lex indeed.